Cremisius's Journal

[Cremisius 0]

Profile
Username: Cremisius
Real name: Felix Falazar
Age: 20
Gender: Male
Height: 5'11"

History:

Young Felix Falazar has been a troubled youth for the majority of his life. He had been born into an impoverished family within the slums of Porto City, Portugal. This wouldn't have necessarily of been an issue, if it wasn't for the fact that he had been diagnosed with acute myelomonocytic leukemia at the age of fifteen. Up until that age, despite the rough upbringing, Felix had rather enjoyed his youth. With six brothers and three sisters by his side, things didn't necessarily seem to be an issue. Even with the hardships brought upon them, they had always had food on their table and had enjoyed each others company. Of course.. that was all until the leukemia had hit. Unfortunately, Felix's parents had barely been scraping by before, what with the ten kids and whatnot. The fact that they had rather low paying jobs on top of that? There really wasn't much hope for the family after the leukemia had struck. The primary issue had been the fact that they had barely been able to get him into the doctor, let alone with a specialist of any kind. In order to cover the costs, the family had to give up certain things that they didn't entirely wish to give up. Suddenly there was less food on the table. The bills hadn't been getting paid more and more often. Eventually, despite the serious risks to Felix's health, the other kids had started to get fed up with it. They could see the troubles that their parents had been going through and wanted to help, but knew that there wasn't anything that they could do. Anything but take it out on Felix..

Around the age of sixteen, Felix's siblings had started to harbor a strong resentment towards him. The lives that they had lived before were no longer possible. Their parents were obviously struggling and their mother had cried every night. To them, it had seemed as though he had been the source of all of their issues. And as kids usually did when they have issues with something, they had simply cast him aside. Whenever their parents weren't around, the other kids would tell him how much they hated him and how he should either die or just leave the family behind. At least that way they would be able to move forward with their lives and there would be food on the table for all of them. It wasn't fair for the others to go without meals for days at a time, just because his medical expenses had to get payed. They were even certain that there father had gone longer without eating! Of course, they were wrong about that fact. It was merely that their father had lost a ton of wait, given the life that they had to live, in order to ensure Felix's safety.

It wasn't until a couple months later that Felix would begin to agree with his siblings.. if he could even call them that any longer. He was the source of their problems. If he had been gone, perhaps things would get better! The only issue with that plan though.. was that he couldn't really move at this point. As such, once he had gotten to his next appointment, Felix would ask to speak with the doctor alone. He would beg and plead with the doctor to simply pull him from life support. He couldn't keep living at this point. It was clear that he had been causing too much trouble for the family. If anyone could put an end to that, it would have to be the doctor, right? Almost. Although the doctor hadn't agreed with young Felix, there wasn't much that he could do. The choice wasn't in the hands of Felix or the doctor, but in the hands of the parents themselves..

Two years later and Felix would find himself being transported in the middle of the night via carrier plane. He wasn't entirely sure how he had gotten there, but there wasn't any point in putting up a fight any longer. He had given up two years ago and saw no further point in living. That was, of course, until he had arrived within Japan and they had begun to explain everything to him. After one of the doctors, that had previously been apart of Doctors without Borders, had discovered Felix within Portugal, they had taken a great interest in him. He, among various others across the world, had been chosen to participate within a program that the Japanese Government had been funding. They had been attempting to develop a piece of FullDive technology for medical purposes, that would hopefully improve the lives and help treat terminally ill patients. Unfortunately, they had been struggling with the designs behind that matter, at the moment, but they had figured that it was at least worth it to try and witness the effects of Virtual Reality upon one of their patients. They believed that this would help further their studies, thus assisting the development behind this new technology. Thankfully, Kayaba Akihiko had already developed the NerveGear! Using the NerveGear as a temporary catalyst, the doctors would load up the machine and launch Felix into the game simply known as 'Sword Art Online.'

Personality:

Although Felix has led a rather disappointing life, now that he has another chance at life, he is holding out for hope that things will change for him. He still has various issues when it comes to dealing with people and quite honestly doesn't really care that much about his life, but he has gotten better as the time has gone on. After witnessing so many people striving to survive and escape this game, a small glimmer of hope has begun to dwell within his heart. Perhaps there is a chance for things to get better? No, of course there isn't! But what if there is? He honestly just doesn't know what to think. He is so unsure of himself and whether or not anyone will truly be able to escape this sick game of Kayaba Akihiko's that it is absolutely revolting to be around him sometimes. At least, that is how he sees it. However, that small glint of hope that some will make it out is what keeps him going. It allows for him to strive to be patient enough to see where things will go with things, has given him the determination to move forward with this game and at least try and consider a positive outcome, and has helped him considerably care more for the livelihood of others. Of course, admitting this or even interacting with others is rather challenging for him. He doesn't let that stop him though. Not from trying to continue moving forward. He is truly a unique man.
Virtues:

Patient – Given the life that Felix has led, it is no surprise that patience is one of his virtues. He knows that even if things are unlikely to work out, as long as he waits for the proper time, at least something in the end will occur. Whether that something is an event, whether it be good or bad, or simply his own decision to turn back, the fact remains that something in turn will happen.

Compassion – After having withstood various trials of his own, Felix has learned to care more about others and the troubles that they may be experiencing. It is true that there won't always be something that he can do for them, especially with his timid nature and fear of dealing with these situations, but that doesn't mean that he doesn't; care for them. After all, it's only human.

Determination – It may not happen often, but once Felix gets his mind on something, he remains fully dedicated to that task and is determined to see it to its end. Whether this be his medical treatments or finally standing up for someone or something that he believes in, the fires that rarely dwell within him shall keep him on task. Of course.. this doesn't happen all that often. Fairly rarely in fact.

Flaws:

Dubious – After experiencing the various trials that he has had to overcome, Felix has been left fraught with uncertainty and doubt in most of the decisions that will be made in his day to day life. He is often left undecided, doubtful or even unsure about what to do. Unfortunately there isn't much that will ever help him overcome this issue. Only in a few rare instances will this occur.

Timid – It isn't often that Felix manages to interact with others, given his timid nature. He is rather shy and quiet when he is around others, or really just in general. This shyness usually leads to him keeping his opinion to himself, lest he subject himself to a rather unpleasant confrontation with someone and/or something. Of course there are times that he shall overcome this obstacle, but it usually takes him a bit to get used to someone. Once he manages to trust this person though? His trust within them shall never be lost. (unless warranted)

Nosy – Despite how shy Felix can be, there is no denying that he is a rather nosy person. The sympathy that he feels towards others, and quite honestly, his rather curious nature as well, often lead him into delving into somebody else's business. The fact that this had been one of his usual pastimes within the hospital didn't help the matter any. In fact, since coming to Aincrad, this issue has gotten much worse!

Profession: N/A

Skills

Total SP: 5

Unspent SP: 0

Non-combat:
» 

Passive:
»

Combat:
»

Weapon skills:
» Dagger Skill [Unskilled]-> Rank 1 - Novice

Inventory
Weapons/Tools:
»  Bone Dagger (Uncommon Dagger w/ Damage 1)

»  Leather Cuirass (Uncommon Light Armor w/ MIT 1)

Currency: 2,500 Col

Consumables: (5) Starter Healing Potions (Heals 50 HP)

Materials: (10) Tier 1 materials

Roleplays
» [solo/private/open] LinkedTitle
» [solo/private/open] LinkedTitle - in progress


Relationships
»
»

Story Thus Far

For the past two years, Feli-.. Cremisius's life has taken a rather unexpected turn. By this point, he has practically forgotten about the pains of his old life, and he is only thinking of the others around him. Should he help them all escape from this game? Or should he try and enjoy his new life to the fullest extent of which he will allow himself? There are so many questions to be asked all the time, and he still isn't sure of what to do, but he at least believes that there is a chance that things might get better. His only action at this point is.. to simply take that overly cautious step forward and hope that he can be of some use.

Edited December 19, 2018 by Cremisius

[Neopolitan 0]

Approved! Welcome to SAO-RPG!