(SP-F1) Contemplation

[Amira 0]

It was strange the way that time seemed to just slip on by without notice. It wasnt even a matter of time flying by when your having fun. It just does that in general, and it seemed to Amira that the onlder she got the faster in went by, and the less fulfilled she felt. Amira knew that she wasnt a bad person, she just needed to make a U turn. She wasnt headed anywhere at the moment, good or bad, and she needed to change that. It had to be better to crash and burn trying to improve herself than to continue on on this static never changing path. She was stuck here in this 'game' and there was only one thing she could truly improve about herself and that was her mind. She was scared. Scared to take risks of any sort. She let out a wry smile, leaning up against the wall of the first floor settlement. She wasnt scared of these NPC enemies, she was scared of getting close to people and screwing everything up. Or even worse having them screw it all up. Shed trusted and been hurt too much to even want to attempt to continue on and put herself in that vulnerable position again. But she knew that it had to happen, and that there was no way around that.

The sun blazed brightly overhead, seeming to burn right through her as she contemplated her life. No friends, no inner fire, and no direction. It was time to find that direction, if only for this stupid game she was stuck in. "Trust your enemies, because they have something to prove." She muttered to herself. Shed always found that parable to be more of a cool saying than something that she could actually implement into her life. She found the opposite to be just as true. You cant trust your friends because they no longer have anything to prove to you. Friendship was a vulnerable state and one that she didnt plan to immerse herself in. 

Edited July 5, 2019 by Amira