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Profile

Username:

Bleed

Real name: 

Makoto Nishida

Age: 

25

Gender:

Male

Height:

5'7 ft.

History:

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Background:

Born into a modest family, he was a quiet and observant child, often overshadowed by his more outgoing siblings or peers. He found joy in the precision and discipline of martial arts at an early age, using it as a way to channel his emotions and find purpose. However, he lacked the natural confidence that often accompanies talent, and every failure felt like proof that he wasn’t good enough.

Early Life:

In his teenage years, he joined a martial arts dojo where he showed immense potential. Despite his physical skill, his reluctance to compete held him back from progressing. His instructor once said, "You’re your own worst enemy. Stop fighting yourself, or you’ll never win anything." The words stuck with him, but rather than inspire change, they deepened his self-doubt.

At home, his parents were supportive but distant, consumed by work and financial struggles. This lack of emotional connection made him feel like an afterthought. He internalized the belief that his worth depended entirely on his achievements, creating a vicious cycle of pressure and self-criticism.

Major Inciting Incident:

In his late teens, he entered a regional martial arts tournament, pushed by his peers and family to "prove himself." Though he reached the finals, he froze in the decisive moment, overwhelmed by the weight of expectations. The loss was humiliating, and instead of support, he faced disappointment from those who had placed their hopes on him. This event cemented his fear of failure and his tendency to shy away from responsibility or leadership roles.

Adulthood and Escape:

As he grew older, he withdrew from the competitive martial arts scene and avoided forming close relationships. He worked mundane jobs to make ends meet, training in secret to maintain his skills but never pushing himself to achieve more. The dojo where he once trained became a distant memory, and he carried the weight of his perceived failures everywhere he went.

When Sword Art Online was released, he saw it as a chance to escape the real world—a place where his history of failure didn’t matter. Here, he could start fresh, using his martial arts knowledge in a virtual world where physical and emotional scars seemed irrelevant. However, even in this new environment, he couldn’t leave his insecurities behind.

 

Virtues and Flaws:

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• Resilient but Hesitant: While he can push through challenges, he second-guesses himself when making key decisions, sometimes delaying action when it's needed most.
• Selfless but Overcommitting: His dedication to helping his team can border on self-sacrifice, often leaving him injured or drained because he doesn't value his well-being as much as others’.
• Humble but Insecure: While his humility prevents arrogance, his inability to take credit or pride in his achievements fosters a cycle of low self-worth.

Skills
 

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► Claw Skill [Rank 1]

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Inventory
Weapons/Tools:
Set A "Basic Package":

+Uncommon Assault Spear(Dmg + 1)

+Uncommon Chestplate       (Mit + 1)

       +(5) Starter Healing Potions (Heals 50 HP)

+2,500 Col and (10) Tier 1 materials

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Edited November 21 by Bleed
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