~Squi Hikari's Journal~

[Squi Hikari 0]

(Please disregard the horns, tail, and ears until such a time that Squishy acquires an item capable of making him have them)
 

Profile:
Username: Squi Hikari
Real name: Squishy Kurai
Age: 19
Gender: Male (Femboy, details below)
Height: 5'2"

Background:

Squishy was born to a couple of goat farmers deep in rural Japan. His mother and father were of... an interesting sort. They had already had 3 boys before Squishy and his mother wanted nothing more than to have a little girl. Perhaps they would have kept trying for one after Squishy was born... but Squi would be the final child his mother would ever bear. His name would be the only thing Squishy ever knew of her as it was the final word she spoke according to his father. "I love you...," She spoke on her deathbed and then, just before she passed on, she would squeeze baby Squishy and mutter what would become his name, "Squishy...".

The fate of his mother sent his father into a deep spiral of depression and hysteria... which would eventually be turned against Squishy. "If you had only been what we wanted!,"  and "Why did you take her from me!," were common phrases that would come from his father during various drunken rages. This continued through much of Squishy's younger years and he learned to take refuge with the goats out in the pens in order to escape the beratement . It was here that he picked up the odd habit of bleating, similar to his goat friends, when frightened, saddened, and even when happy. This refuge would only last for so long. The hysteria eventually ended up being too much for his father as he began to feel that if Squishy was a girl then somehow his late wife would rest easier and all the wrongs would somehow be righted. Thus began the constant conditioning that would continue through much of the rest of Squishy's life.

He would never be allowed to wear boy's clothes again. His father even had the schools issue him female uniforms. He wasn't allowed to cut his hair too short or to allow his body hair to grow out in any capacity unbecoming of a girl. This could have been seen as a horrid act by his father and it was; however, Squishy did not mind it. Either because this conditioning began at such a young age, or perhaps because Squishy finally found a side of himself he could be proud of. Squishy enjoyed his pretty clothes and smooth skin. It helped that Squishy was even developing like a girl would have with wonderful plumpness in all the right places and a stunning hourglass figure. It was nearly impossible to tell that Squishy was a boy at all. His life remained on this pedestal until that inevitable day when everyone would learn his secret.

Squishy still recalls it as if it were yesterday. The pouring rain, the terrible choice of a white pair of undergarments, and the local school bullies catching him at just the wrong moment. All it took was one push into a puddle for the water to soak through his clothes and his secret to be revealed. The boys at his school thought he was some sort of freak and the girls thought he was some sort of pervert. He was alone once more... And this time Full Dive Virtual Reality would fill that void. He could truly be anything he wanted to be in these worlds, be anyone he wanted to be. He closed himself off from the rest of the world and dove into Virtual Reality until that fateful day of November 6th, 2022 when his world would be changed forever. 

It took Squishy some time to adjust to what happened on that day. Even when he did stop panicking he... had no real reason to want to beat the game. He was even making friends inside the Town of Beginnings! He could finally be who he wanted to be and not be judged by any other metric. He could enjoy his life to the fullest, even if he was ignoring the horrors happening in the game around him. Friends would come and go, but then they started not coming back at all... It felt like Squishy lost a friend at least once a week. What should have been easy missions on the first floor were killing his friends and he had to find out why.

He would get his answer. After pursuing one of his friends secretly for some time a sect of a murder guild would reveal themselves. They blamed people like Squishy and his friends for the fate of Aincrad. They blamed them for the clear taking as long as it was. For Squishy and his friends Aincrad was a paradise, but for these murderers it was an inescapable prison. How many had they killed? Would Squishy be next? No. Squishy's panic quickly turned to outrage and for the first time he had a reason to grow stronger.

 

Virtues

1. Squishy has an unbreakable loyalty to his friends. He would never betray them or sell them out, even at the cost of his own life. He would do just about anything to help his friends. 
2. Squishy learned at a young age how to handle a Claw-type weapon. He had to use such a weapon in the real world to defend the goats on his farm. This assists his with normal attacks in Sword Art Online but makes sword skills feel a bit more unnatural.
3. Squishy has an insatiable drive to grow stronger. The loss of his friends made him despise the injustice in Aincrad. Such a drive could never have been obtained from something happening to himself, but they decided to hurt his friends.

Flaws

1. Squishy cannot simply stand by and watch as someone is hurt. He would sooner sacrifice himself than to watch someone else die. He has seen enough friends die... after all.
2. Squishy does not like hurting animals, especially defensive ones. He has trouble separating the real world and Aincrad. Things such as boars, birds, elephants, etc. are all simply defending their homes in his eyes. (Even if they are just lines of code inside Aincrad)
3. Squishy has a burning rage against red players. He wouldn't intentionally kill himself in order to stop one of them; though, he may get pretty close. He won't stop until all of Aincrad's murderers are stopped.

Skills:

• Claw Skill

Inventory:

New Character Bundle: Support Bundle
Equipment

• 2,000 Col
• (25) Materials

Consumables

• (3) Starter Healing Potions (Heals 50 HP)

Roleplay Log:

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